During an ordinary physical five or six years ago, my doctor noticed I had a hernia – you know, uh, down there.
“Does it hurt?” she asked. Negative. “Does it cause any discomfort at all?” Negative. “Then let’s just leave it alone,” she advised. And we did.
Five or six years later, and five or six well checks later, it did begin to bother me. Long story short? I consulted a specialist and we scheduled surgery to fix the damned thing.
There are various types of hernias. Mine was inguinal, which according to a Google search is among the most common. The inner groin, if you’re curious. Nationwide about eight hundred thousand of these are fixed each year, and something like ninety percent involve a synthetic material called mesh. As I understand it, mesh is a kind of thin fabric used to reinforce the abdominal wall and is associated with a lower rate of hernia reoccurrence.
Interestingly, the surgeon did not use the word “mesh” during our initial consult. The surgery would be laparoscopic, he explained. Robotic. He sketched it out on a piece of paper and drew a rectangle representing the stuff he’d use to reinforce the repair.
Only after I got home and Googled it did I realize that what he was talking about was mesh. I’d heard of it. “Almost every mesh is made, at its base, of polypropylene,” an ambulence-chasing lawyer's website advised. Polypropylene is a petroleum-based plastic. Same stuff disposable water bottles are made of. The potential for nasty side effects is high. It can stiffen and harden in the body.
“Look, I’ve been doing this a long time,” the surgeon said, with a hint of exasperation. “I’ve done hundreds of these things. Anymore, mesh is standard. If there was a serious issue with it I’d be sued left and right. I sure as hell don’t want that.”
That was enough; I relented. We scheduled the surgery for a week later.
Then, a few days before, I learned my brother-in-law had a hernia repaired about a year and a half earlier. Mesh was used. Afterward everything was fine – at first. But within weeks he began suffering debilitating pain. My sister said he had to prop his legs up just to relieve the pain and pressure – a real textbook bad reaction, based on my Googling. He had just undergone a second operation to remove the mesh.
Only sometimes does the moon enter its seventh house, and Jupiter align with Mars. This felt like one of those times. The cosmos sending me a message. I called the surgeon’s office yet again – this time, just one day before the procedure (by which time I had cleared the pre-operative COVID screening).
They were very accommodating, but there was a potential hitch. The insurance company had signed off on Plan A, and now I wanted Plan B – open surgery, no mesh. I won’t bore you with the details beyond saying I sat on pins and needles all afternoon, waiting for the callback saying the change had been approved.
As this is written it’s the day after the surgery. There is no mesh in me. Since it was open surgery I’m left with a ghastly wound – if wound is the right term for a corrective procedure I submitted to voluntarily. Very hideous in appearance, with swelling and bruising. No obvious stitches; they are either internal (most likely) or not there. On the surface there is some glossy crap, as if the incision had been superglued back together. I have pain pills but am not taking them. Not because of macho dementia, but because of the known side effects. And maybe a few unknowns.
